dearest LAO SHI




XIEXIE NI WORS. i know you cant read this since its in english so i shall JIN LIANG type chinese kay.

WO FANG QI LE WO DE HUA YU ZHEN DE HEN LAN. haha. happy early teacher's day lao shi.

my friends, oh my wonderful friends


zoey: you're so tut*
chits: don't worry, you're tut too
zoey: so we can be a good pair**
zoey: ... oh actually i wanna be apple.

get it? omg. okay, translation.

tut* means dumb (pronounced as "toot")
pair** as in "pear"

so now you get it. haha. how can i not love LOVE them.

okay during geog.

mr siow: even though you've gone for rebonding*, i recognise you ms maggie mee**

okay, & one more time, translations.

rebonding* as in ms maggie mee had gone for "rebonding" and turned into ms Spaghetti.
ms maggie mee** was a character in his joke

haha, school's getting weird dont you think.

okay, one more. after recess.

people gathering around annie's table: awwww~ sho cute!*
annie(after holding onto the hamster): ahhhhhhh!** -hyperventilates-

and, translations.

sho cute* referring the adorable hamster
ahhhhhhh** is annie's natural reaction.


hahahahaha. school's just dumb.

the stupidity you get from the friends you have

chits: hey you know who's denise keller?
laura: is it the blind one?

hahahahahahahaha. its the Mtv VJ by the way.

anyway.

we shall all mourn for the passing of our tablet pcs over to the TA.

TA, technical ass... oops sorry, i got distracted. technical assistance.

oh tablet dearest, for you have brought light to this world, you have created new paths for our lonely souls to walk, you have been there when we were most bored, i pray, most sincerely, that you will survive.

cause your a believer.
lalalala.

however that song goes. oh and the virus-hacker-whatever-crap people out there, please, for crying out loud,

GO SCREW YOUR OWN SYSTEM.

...

with one last glance
she took her plunge

the next day they found
a note which read
through hatred im bound
to this world, never dead.


im a happy kid.

cause i've improved on my ARGUMENTATIVE skills. funny how this school is OH-SO all rounded that even in their marking they give a chance to all their students to practice and maintain the necessary skills needed for arguing or debating.

rare find huh.

nono, its my bad. for i am speaking from one side of the point which ultimately turns out to be wrong. so if i speak from the other side, i'll probably be right. oh but then again, if the other point is wrong in this view & this point is wrong in their views, how AGAIN are we supposed to be marked on. hmmm.

i wonder really.

if they DO get our point before we have the chance to even state our point, will that be considered a superpower that we may all just posess but never know about it. or just authority working its way up their brains. difficult choice.

oh but dont get me wrong.

im a happy lil' kid. because i absolutely love how this is just simply wasting my life away.

just because this logic LOOKS inaccessible, doesnt mean it actually IS inaccessable.

why let fate have all the fun
take your chances my dear
and someday you'll find
that you'll learn to stand on your own.

its not the same.

its times like this i wish i had someone here to listen to my words. its times like this i dont expect a call from anyone but simply wish to know im not alone. its times like this when i cant take it anymore & i wanna just cry but found out there's no more tears to cry.

emotions flow when you cry. be it happy or sad. so what happens when you cant cry. when you know its suffocating your throat but you cant let it go. not because you dont want to, but because you cant.

what happens when everything is kept inside and you know theres only so much you can take. can you tell when someone has been crying themself to sleep or when someone is hurting so bad on the inside they get scarred on the outside.

how can you promise someone you'll always be there when they need them. how can you promise that the distance between you and someone is just a phone away. how can you stare me down and say you can count on me. how can you make it so easy when you say i'll always remember you.

how could you.

how could you when thats a promise no one can make. not to themselves and not to others. no one will forever be there for you, its time i learn to stand by myself. if the distance between you and someone is a phonecall away, then what if no one ever calls back or answers the phone. i cant count on you, and you wont remember me forever, because memories fade, no matter how hard we try to hold on to them.

photos and mental scenes in your head are only what used to be.

but at least i can argue that its not a "what if" anymore.

friends are us. friends are love.

i love them OH SO MUCH.

went to laura's house today for art project. more of a camwhore happy hour. haha.

pictures are on friendster.

we can all be future camwhorists and specialize in the study of camwhorism.

shout to the world your innocence.

four walls. 2 doors.

one out the room
one out the window

cause i can feel the world collapse around me. & it left me behind.

we'll count the footsteps you take to walk away






eLearning

today was the first day of the two days of eLearning in crescent for sec 2.

lets see. art "live" lesson was conducted on hue campus by ms trisha goh. lesson started at 2, & hue campus hanged at 230. the software was unavailable or something & none of us could get back in. we were supposed to discuss the draft with ms goh on hue at 3 sharp. unfortunately for her, none of us could log on again.

so we all continued our discussion on msn messanger. how inovative. haha.

for non"live" lessons we have geography, science & PE. & no we dont do physical for PE, its something about smoking. anyway. for science right, we had to download this video then finish up a worksheet & the workbook.

the video is hilarious. i really didnt expect mr keong to record his voice down. & its quite freaky seeing the cursor move around & start writing by its own. haha. & who ever records down "is that clear" on an educational video?? lol. the video is damn lag. considering the time now which im doing it, i can just doze off halfway through.

oh well. one more day of eLearning & its back to school. i can already hear the teachers asking why some of us werent online during lessons time. damn hue campus.

one.

two.

three.

bang.

impulse. do you count the number of seconds before you choose to do something for yourself. or the number of steps someone takes to walk away from you.

because maybe someone will one day come up to you & say "hello" without the "o" or "cute" leaving out the "e" all in one sentence.

how much difference will it make.

love for all for they all loved me. =)

thanks.

dont you just find it so hilarious.

how you can stare me down blankly & not recognise me.
one day. thats as long as it'll take.

but anyway. i'd really wanna say to my oh-so-adorable juniors. we all love you & we hope you'll continue to work hard. you guys did really well.

hmmm.

emotion #1
loved.

*//1e; dare to be different says:
hello

---> sn0wiie ; the bliss of solitude. says:
hiiiiiiiiieeee xD

aysh says:
=)

---> sn0wiie ; the bliss of solitude. says:
*pokes*

*//1e; dare to be different says:
oh anw we were wondering if u wanna celebrate ur bdae on saturday
:D


emotion #2
stupidity.

wait for you. says:
dont live in self denial

aysh says:
dun live in Stupidity

wait for you. says:
speak for youself

aysh says:
i am. thats why im typing under AYSH not ZOEY

wait for you. says:
ok lor

aysh says:
i know lor. u run out of things to say. HA.

wait for you. says:
hmph

aysh says:
haha ok lurh. chill


emotion #3
emo.

Life's but a walking shadow
Macbeth, Act V, Sc. V

so singapore's one sturdy lil red dot after all.

national day celebration in school was fun. damn fun.
i think my school has this thing about singing. lol. like seriously. everyone gets super uber hyper during community singing.

pictures.


our ice kachang at seoul garden


whoa. cool.

emo dear shi shi


there's something about those green clappers...



gross. i know.


teachers play dress up too


ashley & i

haha. HAHA. HAHAHA. sry dear. i just HAD to post this.

clappers. whoo. they're called "PONG BONGS"

attitude my dear. ha.

NP people bonding at the back.

whose butt?



happy birthday singapore.

nope.

ever remembered when you were little and you thought everything was out to get you? like all those monsters under the bed & in the closet. like how your mum was actually an evil witch who was sooner or later going to make you eat some poisoned apple or how teachers all had the evil plan of cooking all their students alive & eating them later on.

anyone? yes? or no?

well, neither do i.

but ever remembered when you felt like everything was out to get you, you'd simply pull your blanket over your head & hope everythng'll go away? like it was your haven & nothing could get to you. & the world would fade slowly away untill you fell asleep.

ever remembered when you were crying & you just wanted everybody to leave you alone. & then you'd stop & realise the world's fade away & you've been left behind.
be careful my dear, for what exactly you wish for. because the world's not at your command.

ehem.

for one. no one ever said it had anything to do with her.
even if someone did, oh yeah, i was never there, so how again would i know.

but then again, maybe you were never there on the day it was due. so remind me, was that the reason why i was so stressed up because i feel that stress build on my poor little self. or maybe it was because i stayed till five to actually finish it & present it. i wonder huh. difficult choice.

oh ok. enough. i told you to listen the other day. i told you to listen in class so that we actually have an idea what to do on the website. & someone was too caught up with her computer. i dont have anything against the fact that you didnt know it. but my dear, it was being taught in class & you were too busy wasting your typing skills away. so maybe thats why we ignored your effing face that day when you asked because you effing should have known it when i effing asked you to listen.

apologise. i mean yes you did. but so what. we didnt see you turn up on friday. oh maybe you forgot. but it doesnt matter anyway since we've already handed it up & presented it.

immature me. im practically taking time off to type this out.


but maybe this time its more legible.
fine. i get it. you win. because im sick & tired of all of this.

& one side of the story doesnt make the whole truth.
sorry mo. but it isnt as simple as what you think.


just because i'll let bygones be bygones doesnt mean i actually use bygones.

URGH.

i cant freaking stand the way you are.
i cant stand your damn attitue towards everything alright. you make us so freaking mad & you can just freaking sit there & laugh like some freaking idiot who freaking doesnt give a damn.

just do us all a favour & freaking take some initiative. how old are you already?! & everyone has to tell you every single shit to do. you take this as what? play school?! oh yeah, pack you your *ucking attitude along to preschool for all i care.

cause someone's gotta hack the nonsense out of that puny brain of yours & force some freaking morals into it.

i've made up my mind!

i have a new ambition!
i'll be the nest shakespeare!
i'll create the words in your vocabulary like "amandarocks"
& "i love you" would be "ohmyamanda"

=) laura ended up laughing for about 10 minutes after i told her that.

forgiveness is a privilege, not a right.

but for all its worth, i'd be willing to hand it to you.

its hard for me, hard for you, & hard for everyone else who sat there & took every word in their stride.

this world revolves around imperfection. yes, we all know it by heart, nobody's perfect. so remind me again why we strive for perfection in this world when simply trying our best is perfection? im sorry, i missed out a word there. trying our best is our perfection.

we've got one shot at everything. oh believe me, i know. we've all tried. & we've all fallen. but some of us chose to look up when falling instead of facing the ground & expecting it to happen. & then there are the ones who choose to just jump off the nearest cliff.

there are some things in life we have a choice in. honestly, the world's not going to wait for you to realise it, its time you fall, hard enough to realise it yourself...

one mistake. two mistakes.
one choice. my choice.
how hard can it be? really really hard.